Mark Wahlberg's Prayers

I pray for this same thing Mark...to be a good servant to God, a mother, a wife, a daughter, a friend, a sister and aunt, a good neighbor, a good leader and a good follower to those that are serving God and doing the right thing. Look at this:

http://ignatianspirituality.com/11823/mark-wahlbergs-prayers/?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+dotMagis+%28dotMagis+-+Ignatian+Spirituality%29

Gosh, today I went to my usual small group while I wait for Wyatt in his religious ed class, it was thought provoking for me. We, parents, gather briefly to talk about the readings and discuss how it relates in our lives. I left feeling so confused and almost frustrated. After reading "...we ourselves would not know without Mark's gospel is the journey of these committed disciples through fear, flight, sleep, denial, failure." it was asked by someone "which of these in your life right now can you most identify with?" (http://www.goodgroundpress.com/sunday_by_sunday.aspx) I sat unable to come up with anything in the moment. Usually we sit and speak up when needed, but this time we were asked to go around in a circle and share. That was really hard for me. As I hadn't pinpointed any of these. I said that I wasn't currently identifying with any and felt really blessed that my life did not have any one major stress. I got that feeling like "man, you're too good for us feel". It seems that everyone has such big things going on in their lives, I started feeling guilty almost trying to desperately find something so I could relate to this small group. Why did such a start to a typical good day end with such guilt that I didn't have anything bad to feel about? Yes, yes, I have had some turmoil here and there, and I have a huge fear of failure, and I desperately want to do the right thing so much that I want others to do the right thing. I just felt so emotional that I felt like these few people come together because the desperately need to heal, and I hope I'm not there for selfish reasons - to know a few faces and to start connections. After all I have volunteered with serving the poor once a month. I pray that for this God has a plan for me in all my experiences either for myself or others in my life. Ugh. That felt so good to get off my chest...one reason why I decided to start blogging again today. Even if just one person reads this.